Loe raamatut: «A Love So Strong»
“I’m worried about you.”
“I appreciate that, Marcus, more than you know.” Nicole reached tentatively for his hand, willing him to understand what she couldn’t seem to come right out and say. “Soon things will be different. My brother and I will move away from my father and be free to go where we want…see who we want.”
Marcus opened his mouth as if to argue, then he blinked. The next thing she knew, he was jumping out of the car.
“Say hello to Beau for me,” Marcus prattled cheerfully, striding away.
Nicole blew out a short breath. What was that about? Had the mere suggestion that she’d like to date him sent him running for the hills?
At first, Nicole was disheartened, then realized there was plenty of time to change his mind. She was sure Marcus cared, and maybe one day he would get used to the idea….
ARLENE JAMES
says, “Camp meetings, mission work and the church where my parents and grandparents were prominent members permeate my Oklahoma childhood memories. It was a golden time, which sustains me yet. However, only as a young, widowed mother did I truly begin growing in my personal relationship with the Lord. Through adversity, He blessed me in countless ways, one of which is a second marriage so loving and romantic, it still feels like courtship!”
The author of over sixty novels, Arlene James now resides outside of Dallas, Texas, with her husband. Arlene says, “The rewards of motherhood have indeed been extraordinary for me. Yet I’ve looked forward to this new stage of my life.” Her need to write is greater than ever, a fact that frankly amazes her, as she’s been at it since the eighth grade!
A Love So Strong
Arlene James
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And this I pray,
that your love may abound still more and more
in real knowledge and all discernment.
—Philippians 1:9
For Lauren, because granddaughters
are one of God’s greatest blessings,
and Granna loves you very, very much.
Contents
Chapter One
Chapter Two
Chapter Three
Chapter Four
Chapter Five
Chapter Six
Chapter Seven
Chapter Eight
Chapter Nine
Chapter Ten
Chapter Eleven
Chapter Twelve
Chapter Thirteen
Chapter Fourteen
Chapter Fifteen
Letter to Reader
Questions for Discussion
Chapter One
“Happy birthday! Happy birthday, Marcus!”
Marcus Wheeler lifted his hands and addressed the two dozen or so assembled guests.
“You shouldn’t have gone to so much trouble. The church already gave me a nice monetary gift. A man blessed with that and a family such as this can’t ask for more.” He grinned, then added, “But I’m mighty appreciative, all the same.”
“Good grief, man. We have six sisters between us,” Vince, husband of Marcus’s sister Jolie and scion of the boisterous Cutler clan, stated ruefully. “Did you really think your two sisters and my four would let your birthday slip by without a family celebration?”
Everyone laughed, and the rippling sound warmed Marcus to the very center of his soul. Not so long ago he’d been struggling to hold on to some semblance of his fractured family, and now, thanks to his two younger sisters—especially Jolie, the eldest of them—he had more family than he could keep track of.
“So far as I can tell,” drawled Kendal Oakes, husband of Marcus’s youngest sister, Connie, “the Cutlers don’t let any excuse to celebrate get past them.”
This elicited more laughter and a general chorus of “Amen, brother!”
An only child himself, Kendal confessed to Marcus that he still didn’t seem to know what to make of the loving horde who were the Cutlers, but after almost a year as a member of the clan, he was more at ease. Even his daughter, Larissa, who would be three in a couple months and was often overwhelmed by too much stimulation, had relaxed into the midst of what had proven to be a loving, sheltering family.
It was also a growing family, with Jolie and Vince expecting their first child in late June. Marcus knew that Jolie would be as wonderful a mother to her own child as she had been to her nephew, Russell, Connie’s thirty-month-old son, in his first year when Connie couldn’t take care of him.
“Can’t have too much celebration,” Connie murmured, smoothing Russell’s bright red hair as he leaned against her leg, eagerly awaiting his piece of the birthday cake.
Marcus couldn’t have agreed with her more. So much had changed in the past two years.
Connie had gotten out of prison and had since been exonerated of having taken any knowing part in the armed robbery and subsequent murder perpetrated by Russell’s biological father. The split that had occurred in the family when Connie had reclaimed Russell from Jolie’s care had been mended, thanks to Vince Cutler, who had married Jolie last Valentine’s Day, almost a year ago now. Most amazing of all, Connie and Kendal had found each other, and what had begun as a marriage of convenience had joined two broken homes into one strong, Christ-centered family.
Marcus thanked God daily for the masterful way in which He had mended the bonds shattered by death and separation, and the spotty care of the foster child system in which he and his sisters had grown up. Truly, what else could a man of God possibly ask for?
Looking around the room at no fewer than seven happy couples, Marcus had to admit to himself that it was proving to be surprisingly difficult to be the only unmarried adult member of the family. Here he sat, a single minister in want of a wife, and suddenly thirty felt positively ancient. It seemed ungrateful, even selfish, to keep asking God where his mate was, but he couldn’t help wondering. Marcus closed his eyes and sent a swift, silent prayer heavenward.
Lord, I thank You for all with which You’ve blessed me. I thank You for every person in this room. I even thank You for the room itself! You’ve given Jolie and Vince a lovely home. Connie and Kendal, too, for that matter. And I thank You for my church, Lord. Help me be satisfied with what I already have. That’s my birthday prayer. Amen.
Jolie shoved another box onto his lap.
“Ya’ll, this is just too much,” he insisted, mentally cataloging the stack of dress shirts, ties, bookmarks and religious CDs already littering the floor around his chair.
“Hush up and rip in,” Jolie counseled, dropping a kiss on his forehead as she moved back to her husband’s side on the sofa that occupied one wall of the living room, to which the party had relocated after indulging the children’s demand for cake. “That’s the last one anyway.”
Relieved to hear it, Marcus eagerly tore away the wrapping paper and pried apart the white pasteboard box beneath to reveal a large photo album tastefully bound in brown leather. A cross and the word “Wheeler” had been embossed on the front in gold.
Somewhat warily, Marcus cracked the cover. The front page contained grainy black-and-white photographs of their great-grandparents Edna and Bledsoe Wheeler.
“I remember these!” Marcus exclaimed happily. “But I thought they were lost.”
“Jo had them,” Connie apprised him, obviously pleased.
He turned another page and found a color eight-by-ten of his mother, Velma, as a high school senior. The youngest of two daughters born almost twenty years apart, Velma had been the late child of elderly parents and too quickly left alone in the world. After Marcus’s father died she’d tried to fill the void with one man after another, eventually abandoning her own children in search of a love she’d never truly understood, only to die in an auto accident.
As difficult as it had been to be separated at ten from his younger sisters, Marcus thanked God that he’d landed with a family who had taught him to love the Lord and saved him from repeating his mother’s fate. His sisters hadn’t been blessed in that fashion. But now wasn’t the time for bad memories. Today was his birthday, a time to celebrate. He and his sisters were back together again. That was all that mattered.
He turned the page and saw a small photo of their father, Carl, who had died of heart failure in his thirties, brought on by extensive alcohol and drug abuse. Marcus barely remembered him. Mostly he remembered the loud arguments that had preceded his departure from the household when Connie had still been a baby.
He’d been a nice-looking man, with Connie’s bright, golden blond hair. What a pity that he’d allowed himself to be controlled by his addictions. Still, it was nice to have this reminder of him.
Pictures of Marcus and his sisters as children followed. Most included various members of the foster families with whom they’d resided. Next came a picture of Jolie’s wedding. Marcus smiled at that and then at the photo of Connie and Kendal’s second wedding, which followed. Now that was an interesting story.
Their first ceremony had been a somber affair performed in Kendal’s home. They married because Russell needed a father, and Larissa needed a mother. Only some months later did the two realize that God had brought them together for more than the sake of their children and made their sham marriage a real one with a ceremony in church. It had been Marcus’s distinct privilege to perform all three of his sisters’ ceremonies.
He chuckled at photos of his nephew, Russell, and niece, Larissa. The two had taken to each other like bark on a tree. Soon the cross adoption of each child by the other’s natural parent would be finalized.
The last picture was a puzzle. It looked like an ink blot at first, and then Marcus realized that it more closely resembled a printed negative of an X-ray. He turned the album sideways, trying to get a better look, prompting Vince to lean forward and announce, “That’s your other nephew.”
Jolie patted her slightly rounded belly with a self-satisfied smile. “We made you a print of the sonogram.”
Ovida Cutler, Vince’s mother, launched to her feet. All rounded curves and beaming smile, with fading red hair curling about her face, she was the quintessential grandmother.
“It’s a boy!” she exclaimed, as if she didn’t already have four grandsons.
“And this one will have the Cutler name,” once of Vince’s sisters pointed out.
“Actually,” Jolie said, glowing at Marcus, “we’re thinking that Aaron Lawrence Cutler is a fine name for a son, if you don’t mind us appropriating your middle name, Marcus.”
Marcus glanced at Larry Cutler, Ovida’s husband, who was beaming ear to ear, obviously having no compunction about his given name coming in second to Marcus’s middle one.
“I’d be honored, sis,” he told her in a thick voice.
Fortunately the doorbell rang just then, preventing the whole room from erupting into happy tears.
While Vince hurried out to answer the door, Marcus quickly flipped through the remainder of the pages in the photo album to be certain that they were empty, then yielded to the clamor to pass it around. Within seconds the women were all “oohing” over the sonogram. Marcus himself hadn’t seen anything that actually looked like a baby in the print, but that didn’t lessen his delight in having it. Aaron Lawrence Cutler. Wow.
He wondered if he would ever have a son whom he might want to name after himself.
Vince returned with a girl in tow. Striking, with long hair the color of black coffee falling past her slender shoulders, she wore a somewhat outlandish costume of lime-green leggings, a long, straight denim skirt, a black turtleneck and muffler, a sky-blue fringed poncho and red leather flats. The shoes matched her gloves, which left only her wrists, ankles and heart-shaped face bare to the February chill.
A lime-green headband held back her sleek, dark hair, revealing an intriguing widow’s peak that emphasized her wide, prominent cheekbones and slightly pointed chin. It was an exotic face, with large, round, tip-tilted eyes that gave a feline grace to a small nose and a wide, full, strawberry mouth. What galvanized, Marcus, however, were the shiny tracks of tears that marked her pale cheeks.
Without even thinking about it, he was out of his chair a heartbeat after Jolie’s mother-in-law, Ovida, and was striding across the room, certain that he was needed.
“Nicole Archer!” Ovida exclaimed, opening her arms. “Honey, what’s wrong?”
The newcomer shook her head, eyes flicking self-consciously around the room. If her hair was black coffee, Marcus noted inanely, then those sparkling, soft brown eyes were café au lait. The cream in the coffee would be her skin.
Despite her lithe build, she was not a teenager, he saw upon closer inspection, but not far past it. He liked the fact that she wore no cosmetics, her skin appearing freshly scrubbed and utterly flawless.
A number of private conversations immediately began, their intent patently obvious. Marcus felt a spurt of gratitude for any effort to put this obviously troubled young lady at ease.
“I’m sorry to bother you,” she said in a soft, warbling voice as Ovida’s round arms encircled her slender shoulders.
“Nonsense. Suzanne’s daughter could never be a bother to me.” Ovida pulled back slightly and asked, “Now, what’s he done?”
Those coffee-with-cream eyes again flickered with uncertainty. Sensing her discomfiture, Marcus stepped up and pointed an arm toward the door beyond the formal dining area as if he had every right to offer this young woman the use of the house.
“It’s quiet in the kitchen,” he suggested.
Ovida looked up at that, her worried gaze easing somewhat. She patted his cheek with one plump hand.
“I don’t want to impose,” Nicole protested softly, sniffing and ducking her head.
“No problem,” Marcus assured her as Ovida turned the girl toward the door and gently but firmly urged her forward.
A couple of Ovida’s daughters rose to follow, but Marcus lifted a proprietary hand. They would, of course, want to help, but ministry had some privileges, and he found himself compelled to exercise them for once. Both instantly subsided, and he nodded in gratitude before swiftly following Ovida and her guest.
He caught up with and passed them in time to push back the swinging door on its silent hinges. As she passed through into the kitchen, Nicole looked up and whispered her thanks.
“You’re welcome,” Marcus murmured, unashamedly following the pair into the brick-and-oak kitchen and letting the door swing closed behind him.
Ovida parked Nicole at the wrought-iron table in the breakfast nook. “Can I get you something to drink, honey?”
Nicole glanced at the half-empty coffeepot on the counter. Marcus had noticed that wherever Ovida and Larry Cutler were, the coffeepot was kept in service. It seemed fitting that this girl, for she was little more than that, surely, should show a preference for the dark beverage.
Without being asked, he turned to the cabinet and took down a stoneware coffee mug. Then he filled it with strong, black coffee and carried it to the table, placing it gently in front of this dark-haired beauty. She was beautiful, he realized with a jolt. But very young.
“There’s cream and sugar, if you like.”
Smiling wanly, she shook her head, tugged off her worn red leather gloves and wrapped a slender hand around the mug.
“Thank you. Again.”
“You’re welcome. Again.”
As she sipped, he pulled out a chair for Ovida and nodded her down into it.
“Now tell me, honey,” Ovida urged, “what’s wrong?”
Nicole glanced quickly at Marcus before dropping both hands into her lap in a gesture that bespoke both helplessness and frustration. Marcus pulled out another chair and sat, bracing his forearms against the glass tabletop.
“Forgive me if I’m intruding where I’m not wanted, but if there’s a problem, I’d like to help. My name is Marcus Wheeler, by the way.”
“Nicole Archer.”
He smiled to put her at ease. “It’s nice to meet you, Nicole. I take it that you know my sister Jolie.”
Nicole shook her head. “I know she’s married to Vince, that this is their house.”
“If you know the Cutlers, then you must realize that, through Jolie, I’m part of the family now. You probably don’t know that I’m also a minister.”
Her slender, dark brows rose into pronounced arches.
“Really? You seem too…young.”
Marcus chuckled. “That’s good to hear today of all days.” He leaned closer and confessed in a conspiratorial tone. “Today’s my birthday. My twenties are now officially behind me.”
“Happy birthday.” Wrinkling her button of a nose, she added, “I didn’t mean to crash the party.”
“No problem.” He folded his hands. “I’d like to help, if you’ll allow it.”
She sighed, braced an elbow against the tabletop, turned up her palm and dropped her forehead into it.
“There’s nothing you can do. There’s nothing anyone can do.” Straightening, she shook her head. “I don’t even know why I bothered to come here. It’s just that…” She looked at Ovida, and fresh tears clouded her eyes. “You said this was where you’d be if I needed you.”
Ovida reached across the table to squeeze her hand. “You did exactly right. Now, then, what’s Dillard done this time?”
“Same old, same old,” came the muttered answer.
“That man!” Ovida snapped. “Did he hurt you?”
Marcus stiffened as alarm and something he didn’t normally feel, anger, flashed through him.
“Who is Dillard?”
“Nicole’s father,” Ovida divulged. “Dillard Archer’s been mad at the world and living in a bottle ever since his wife died more than three years ago.”
“He was never like this when Mom was alive,” Nicole said, shaking her head. “He’d lose his temper once in a while, even put his fist through a wall a time or two, but now…” She bit her lip.
Marcus reached for the sheltering mantle of his professional detachment. For some reason that seemed more difficult than usual, but he managed, asking gently, “Is he abusive?”
Nicole bowed her head and whispered, “The worst part is the things he says sometimes, especially to my little brother.”
“What’s your brother’s name?”
“Beau. He turned thirteen at the end of November.”
An emotional age, as Marcus remembered all too well. The next question was, to him, all important.
“Has your father ever hit either one of you, Nicole?”
She sucked in a deep breath, her stillness indicating that she was deciding what to tell him.
“Not really. He’s shoved us around a little, Beau mostly. I’m afraid my little brother hasn’t learned when it’s best to keep quiet.”
Ovida shared a grim look with Marcus, saying, “Your poor mother’s heart would break if she wasn’t beyond such emotion, thank the good Lord.”
“I just don’t know what to do with him anymore,” Nicole admitted tearfully. “I know he misses Mom, but we all do.”
“Of course we do,” Ovida crooned. “For her I’m happy, though. No more illness or pain. Just the peace and joy of heaven.”
Nicole nodded, sniffing. “I believe that, but Dad doesn’t.”
Marcus sighed inwardly, unsurprised to hear that Dillard Archer was not a believer.
“Have you considered calling the authorities?”
Nicole shook her head, blurting, “I don’t want him to go to jail!”
“It might be the only way to get him the help he needs.”
“But what would happen to my little brother?”
Marcus knew the probable answer to that, but he needed more information to make an informed guess.
“How old are you?”
“Twenty.”
So young, Marcus thought, to be shouldering such responsibility.
“Do you work?”
“Part-time. School doesn’t leave a lot of time for work.”
“You’re in college then?”
“UTA.”
He’d attended the University of Texas at Arlington himself, before seminary.
“Studying what, may I ask?”
“Early childhood education.”
He smiled at that and heard himself saying, “We have a day care center at our church.”
“Oh? I’d like to work in day care again, but waiting tables pays better, especially for part-time.” She looked down at her hands, mumbling, “Dad’s on disability because of his back, and that really doesn’t go very far. If we hadn’t used Mom’s life insurance to pay off the house, I don’t know how we’d make it.”
“His drinking can’t help any,” Marcus pointed out gently, “and he isn’t likely to quit on his own.”
“Look,” Nicole said firmly, “I promised my mom.” Her beautiful brown eyes implored Marcus to understand. “I promised that I’d take care of them, Beau and Dad. Mom wouldn’t want me to turn him in to the police.”
“Nicole, your mother never imagined that your dad would fall apart like this,” Ovida pointed out. “She wouldn’t want you to risk yours or your brother’s safety.”
“It’s not that bad,” Nicole insisted. “It’s just that I never know what’s going to set him off, and he can say some really ugly things. I shouldn’t let them bother me. I know it’s the alcohol talking, but…” She sighed intensely.
“Don’t make excuses for him, honey,” Ovida advised, “and don’t let him get to you.”
She lifted big, wounded eyes to Ovida, whispering, “He said that Mom would be disappointed in me.”
Ovida scoffed at that. “No way! Your mother thought the sun rose and set in you and Beau. Your father’s the one she’d be disappointed in, not you. Never you, sugar. And no one knew Suzanne better than I did. I knew your mom from the time she was eleven years old. I was her Sunday School teacher. Trust me on this.”
Nicole smiled wanly. “Mom always said you were the big sister she never had.”
“Oh, and I loved her like a sister.”
“He loved her, too, you know,” Nicole said wistfully.
“I know,” Ovida conceded. “I know. But that doesn’t give him the right to behave this way.”
“Would you like me to speak to him?” Marcus asked. “I think he needs to hear that God still loves him.”
Nicole looked at him, wide-eyed, and shook her head. “I—I don’t think he’d sit still for that. Maybe later, once he’s calmed down.”
“He’d have to be more open than the last time I tried to talk to him,” Ovida warned sadly. “He threw me out of his house—me, who he’s known for decades. He said God and church didn’t do Suzanne any good and he didn’t want to hear any more mealymouthed Bible-thumpers telling him it was for the best.”
“Ah.” Marcus nodded, understanding the problem exactly.
He’d seen it before, a weak faith trying to believe that a desired outcome was the only right one, then shattering completely when God’s will didn’t follow the proscribed path. Jolie had succumbed to that kind of disappointment and doubt after Connie had reclaimed her son, Russell, but with prayer and patience and a willingness on Vince’s part to be used by God, she’d come to see the truth. Marcus made a mental pact with himself to pray regularly for the Archers, starting now.
At his request, Nicole bowed her head and sat quietly while he spoke to God about protection for her and her brother and emotional and spiritual healing for Dillard Archer. Afterward, he spoke to Nicole about AlAnon, the support organization for the family and dependents of alcoholics, and she seemed interested in possibly attending a meeting, if her schedule permitted. Marcus promised to locate the nearest meeting for her, although it sounded as if she already had a pretty full timetable with classes and work and her family.
“Where do you live exactly?”
“Dalworthington Gardens.”
“We’re practically neighbors then. I’m at First Church in Pantego.”
“I know that church,” Nicole said, surprising and pleasing him. “I pass it on my way to school. I like the way it looks, sort of homey and old-fashioned, almost like its own little town.”
Marcus felt his grin stretch to ridiculous proportions. Something odd shimmered through him, something he couldn’t quite identify that snatched at his breath. He cleared his throat and said, “That’s exactly the impression we were going for, a community of believers with the church at its center.”
“But don’t be fooled by the exterior,” Ovida advised Nicole. “It’s a powerful little church, a real asset to the city, and pretty cutting-edge when it comes to technology and worship.”
“We do try,” Marcus conceded. “It’s been an exciting pastorate so far.”
“You ought to visit, Nicole,” Ovida urged. “You and Beau might like it there.”
Nicole looked at Marcus, her warm brown eyes measuring him. “We might,” she said, and then she dropped her gaze pointedly.
Marcus felt a jolt. That hadn’t been personal interest he’d seen in her eyes, surely? No, of course not. To her, he must seem like the next thing to an old man, which, comparably speaking, he was. That seemed a particularly dismal thought.
As talk became more chatter than confession and hand-wringing, Marcus made himself sit silently, a mere observer now that the emotional crisis had passed. It was what he did, part of his calling. He was good at stepping up to the plate when called upon to bat and equally good at retiring once he’d taken his swing. He couldn’t help wondering why this time it was proving so difficult.
Perhaps he should rejoin the party in the other room. He, after all, was the guest of honor. Yes, he should definitely excuse himself. Yet, he sat right there, listening as Ovida and Nicole talked of events in which he’d had no part and people whom he didn’t know.
For some reason he couldn’t tear himself away. Yet, this time, observation felt strangely like being on the outside looking in.
Was he suddenly so old, Marcus wondered, that he’d lost touch already with such fresh-faced youth as this? If so, then surely it was past time for God to bring him a wife.
That wasn’t too much for a man to ask on his thirtieth birthday, was it? Then again, hadn’t he just told God that he’d be happy with those blessings already granted him?
He stared at Nicole’s pretty profile, observing the animation with which she spoke, and knew that if his interest could be elicited by this mere girl, then he was in big trouble. Not only was she too young for him, she was entirely unsuitable.
A minister’s wife did not dress in such eccentric fashion. She didn’t bounce around in her seat and gesture broadly as if physically incapable of sitting still. And she sure wouldn’t slide alarmingly coy looks across a table at a man she’d just met.
It struck him then how laughingly desperate he had become.
Nicole was little more than a child, whose life was, nevertheless, chock-full of stress and responsibility. At her age she probably batted her eyelashes at every male in the immediate vicinity without even knowing that she was doing it.
And he was a thirty-year-old fool who obviously needed to remember that his priority in life was his ministry. That ministry included helping emotionally beleaguered young ladies find the faith to make difficult decisions. If the opportunity arose, that was precisely what he would do for Miss Nicole Archer.
He had the unsettling feeling that such an opportunity would, indeed, arise and no understanding at all why that should alarm him.
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