Монолог

Part I: English

«It nearly was a midnight…»

 
It nearly was a midnight,
I couldn’t close my eyes
Kept thinking, fancying, wondering
Of where would I’ve been tonight.
 
 
If I listened to myself
If I trusted my own heart
If I wasn’t so afraid to show what I am really like.
 
 
If I got out of my bed
If I practiced, practiced more
If I mastered that piano
'Cause I wanted that for sure.
 
 
If I plucked up all my courage
If I stopped rely on luck
If I thought «I’ll make it happen»,
Never tortured my own mind.
 
 
If I never doubted my gifts
If I followed my own light
If I fell and then got straight up
But I never really tried.
 
 
If I wasn’t fearing future
If I took care of myself
If I asked for help I wanted
I would certainly gain strength.
 
 
If I closed my ears when people
Tried to talk me to what’s right
If I could decide for myself
Would it lead to happy life?
 
 
If I knew I could’ve managed
To stay loyal to myself
And I know I have what’s needed
To make all of the success.
 
 
What a life i would have had?
If I listened to myself.
If I got out of my bed.
 
 
Wouldn’t that be really great?