Loe raamatut: «The Cruise of the Shining Light», lehekülg 7

XI
THE GRAY STRANGER

We sat late by the fire in the best room: into which I must fairly lug my perverse old uncle by the ears–for (says he) the wear an’ tear of a wooden leg was a harsh thing for a carpet to abide, an’ parlor chairs (says he) was never made for the hulks o’ sea-farin’ folk. ’Twas late, indeed, when he sent young Cather off to bed, with a warning to be up betimes, or go hungry, and bade me into the dining-room, as was our custom, to set out his bottle and glass. I turned the lamp high, and threw birch on the fire, and lifted his gouty wooden leg to the stool, and got his bottle and little brown jug, wondering, all the while, that my uncle was downcast neither by the wind nor the singular intrusion of the gray stranger. ’Twas a new thing in my life–a grateful change, for heretofore, in black gales, blowing in the night, with the thunder of waters under the window, it had been my duty to stand by, giving the comfort of my presence to the old man’s melancholy and terror. ’Twas the company of the tutor, thinks I, and I was glad that the congenial fellow was come from a far place, escape cut off.

“Wonderful late,” says my uncle.

“No,” said I; “not late for windy nights.”

“Too late for lads,” says he, uneasily.

I poured his glass of rum.

“Think you, Dannie,” my uncle inquired, “that he’ve the makin’s of a fair rascal?”

“An’ who?” says I, the stranger in mind.

“The tutor.”

“I’m hopin’ not!” I cried.

“Ay,” says my uncle, an eye half closed; “but think you he would make a rascal–with clever management?”

“’Twould never come t’ pass, sir.”

My uncle sipped his rum in a muse.

“Uncle Nick,” I complained, “leave un be.”

“’Tis a hard world, Dannie,” he replied.

“Do you leave un be!” I expostulated.

My uncle ignored me. “He’ve a eye, Dannie,” says he, immersed in villanous calculation; “he’ve a dark eye. I ’low it might be managed.”

’Twas an uncomfortable suspicion thus implanted; and ’twas an unhappy outlook disclosed–were my uncle to work his will upon the helpless fellow.

“Uncle Nick, you’ll not mislead un?”

“Bein’ under oath,” my uncle answered, with the accent and glance of tenderest affection, “I’ll keep on, Dannie, t’ the end.”

I poured the second dram of rum and pushed it towards him. ’Twas all hopeless to protest or seek an understanding. I loved the old man, and forgave the paradox of his rascality and loyal affection. The young man from London must take his chance, as must we all, in the fashioning hands of circumstance. ’Twas not to be conceived that his ruin was here to be wrought. My uncle’s face had lost all appearance of repulsion: scar and color and swollen vein–the last mark of sin and the sea–had seemed to vanish from it; ’twas as though the finger of God had in passing touched it into such beauty as the love of children may create of the meanest features of our kind. His glass was in his marred, toil-distorted hand; but his eyes, grown clear and sparkling and crystal-pure–as high of purpose as the eyes of such as delight in sacrifice–were bent upon the lad he had fostered to my age. I dared not–not the lad that was I–I dared not accuse him! Let the young man from London, come for the wage he got, resist, if need were to resist. I could not credit his danger–not on that night. But I see better now than then I saw.

“I ’low he’ll do,” said my uncle, presently, as he set down his glass. “Ay, lad; he’ll do, if I knows a eye from a eye.”

“Do what?”

“Yield,” he answered.

“T’ what?”

“Temptation.”

“Uncle Nick,” I besought, “leave the man be!”

“What odds?” he answered, the shadow of gloom come upon his face. “I’m cleared for hell, anyhow.”

’Twas a thing beyond me, as many a word and wicked deed had been before. I was used to the wretched puzzle–calloused and uncaring, since through all my life I still loved the man who fostered me, and held him in esteem. We fell silent together, as often happened when my uncle tippled himself drunk at night; and my mind coursed in free flight past the seeming peril in which my tutor slept, past the roar of wind and the clamor of the sea, beyond the woes of the fool who would be married, to the cabin of the Shining Light, where Judith sat serene in the midst of the order she had accomplished. I remembered the sunlight and the freshening breeze upon the hills, the chirp and gentle stirring of the day, the azure sea and the far-off, tender mist, the playful breakers, flinging spray into the yellow sunshine. I remembered the companionable presence of the maid, her slender hands, her tawny hair, her sun-browned cheeks and the creamy curve of her brow, the blue and flash and fathomless depths of her eyes. I remembered the sweet, moist touch of her lips: I remembered–in that period of musing, when my uncle, fallen disconsolate in his chair, sipped his rum–the kiss that she gave me in the cabin of the Shining Light.

“Dannie,” says my uncle, “what you thinkin’ about?”

I would not tell.

“’Tis some good thing,” says he. “I’d like wonderful well t’ know.”

I could but sigh.

“Dannie,” says he, in his wisdom, “you’ve growed wonderful fond o’ Judy, isn’t you?”

“I’m t’ wed Judy,” I answered.

’Twas with no unkindness–but with a sly twinkle of understanding–that he looked upon me.

“When I grows up,” I added, for his comfort.

“No, no!” says he. “You’ll never wed Judith. A gentleman? ’Twould scandalize Chesterfield.”

“I will,” said I.

“You’ll not!” cries he, in earnest.

“But I will!”

The defiance still left him smiling. “Not accordin’ t’ Chesterfield,” says he. “You’ll be a gentleman, Dannie, when you grows up, an’ you’ll not be wantin’ t’ wed Judy.”

“Not wantin’ to?”

“No, no; you’ll not be wantin’ to.”

“Still,” says I, “will I wed Judy.”

“An’ why?”

“Because,” said I, “I’ve kissed her!”

My uncle would have his last glass alone (he said); and I must be off to bed and to sleep; ’twas grown late for me (said he) beyond the stretch of his conscience to endure. Lord love us! (said he) would I never be t’ bed in season? Off with me–an’ t’ sleep with me! ’Twould be the worse for me (said he) an he caught me wakeful when he turned in. The thing had an odd look–an odd look, to be sure–for never before had the old man’s conscience pricked him to such fatherly consideration upon a night when the wind blew high. I extinguished the hanging lamp, smothered the smouldering coals, set his night-lamp at hand, and drowsily climbed the stairs, having given him good-night, with a hearty “Thank ’e, sir, for that there tutor!” He bawled after me an injunction against lying awake; and I should presently have gone sound asleep, worn with the excitements of the day, had I not caught ear of him on the move. ’Twas the wary tap and thump of his staff and wooden leg that instantly enlisted my attention; then a cautious fumbling at the latch of the door, a draught of night air, a thin-voiced, garrulous complaint of the weather and long waiting.

“Hist, ye fool!” says my uncle. “Ye’ll wake the lad.”

“Damn the lad!” was the prompt response. “I wish he were dead.”

My uncle laughed.

“Dead!” the stranger repeated. “Dead, Top! And you, too–you hound!”

’Twas an anathema spoken in wrath and hatred.

“I’m thinkin’,” says my uncle, “that ye’re an unkind man.”

The stranger growled.

“Save your temper, man,” my uncle admonished. “Ye’ll need the last rag of it afore the night’s by.”

The man cried out against the threat.

“I’m tellin’ ye,” says my uncle–and I heard his broad hand come with a meaning clap on the stranger’s shoulder–“that ye’ll be wakin’ the lad.”

“The lad! the lad!” the stranger whined. “Is there nothing in the world for you, Top, but that club-footed young whelp?”

I heard it! I heard the words! My door was ajar–my room at the head of the stair–my ears wide and anxious. I heard the words! There was no mistaking what this intruder said. “The club-footed young whelp!” says he. “Is there nothing in the world for you, Top, but that club-footed young whelp?” He said it–I remember that he said it–and to this day, when I am grown beyond the years of childish sensitiveness, I resent the jibe.

“Nothing,” my uncle answered. “Nothing in the world, sir,” he repeated, lovingly, as I thought, “but only that poor club-footed child!”

Sir? ’Twas a queer way to address, thinks I, this man of doubtful quality. Sir? I could not make it out.

“You sentimental fool!”

“Nay, sir,” my uncle rejoined, with spirit. “An they’s a fool in the company, ’tis yourself. I’ve that from the lad, sir, that you goes lacking–ay, an’ will go, t’ the grave!”

“And what, Top,” the stranger sneered, “may this thing be?”

“Ye’ll laugh, sir,” my uncle replied, “when I tells you ’tis his love.”

The man did laugh.

“For shame!” cried my uncle.

He was taking off his wraps–this stranger. They were so many that I wondered. He was a man of quality, after all, it might be. “I tell you, Top,” said he, “that the boy may be damned for all I care. I said damned. I mean damned. There isn’t another form of words, with which I am acquainted, sufficient to express my lack of interest in this child’s welfare. Do you understand me, Top? And do you realize–you obstinate noddy!–that my heart’s in the word? You and I, Top, have business together. It’s a dirty business. It was in the beginning; it is now–a dirty business for us both. I admit it. But can’t we do it reasonably? Can’t we do it alone? Why introduce this ill-born whelp? He’s making trouble, Top; and he’ll make more with every year he lives. Let him shift for himself, man! I care nothing about him. What was his father to me? What was his mother? Make him a cook on a trader. Make him a hand on a Labradorman. Put him before the mast on a foreign craft. What do I care? Let him go! Give him a hook and line. A paddle-punt is patrimony enough for the like of him. Will you never listen to reason? What’s the lad to you? Damn him, say I! Let him–”

“For that,” my uncle interrupted, in a passion, “I’ll hurt ye! Come soon, come late, I’ll hurt ye! Hear me?” he continued, savagely. “I’ll hurt ye for them evil wishes!”

I had expected this outbreak. My uncle would not hear me damned in this cruel way without protest.

“Top,” says the stranger, with a little laugh of scorn, “when you hurt me– I’ll know that the chieftest knave of the St. John’s water-side has turned fool!”

“When I hurts ye, man,” my uncle answered, “I’ll hurt ye sore!”

Again the man laughed.

“Ah, man!” my uncle growled, “but ye’ll squirm for that when the time comes!”

“Come, come, Top!” says the stranger, in such a whine of terror, in such disgusting weakness and sudden withdrawal of high boasting, in such a failure of courage, that I could hardly credit the thing. “Come, come, Top!” he whined. “You’ll do nothing rash, will you? Not rash, Top–not rash!”

“I’ll make ye squirm, sir,” says my uncle, “for damnin’ Dannie.”

“But you’ll do nothing rash, man, will you?”

My uncle would not heed him.

“I’m a reasonable man, Top,” the stranger protested. “You know I’m not a hard man.”

They moved, now, into the dining-room, whence no word of what they said came to my ears. I listened, lying wide-eared in the dark, but heard only a rumble of voices. “And you, too–you hound!” the man had said; and ’twas spoken in the hate that forebodes murder. My uncle? what had that childlike, tenderhearted old rascal accomplished against this man to make the penalty of ungodly wrath a thing meet to the offence? “And you, too–you hound!” I lay in grave trouble and bewilderment, fearing that this strange guest might work his hate upon my uncle, in some explosion of resentment, before my arm could aid against the deed. There was no sound of laughter from below–no hint of conviviality in the intercourse. Voices and the clink of bottle and glass: nothing mellow in the voices, nothing genial in the clink of glass–nothing friendly or hospitable. ’Twas an uneasy occupation that engaged me; no good, as I knew, came from a surly bout with a bottle of rum. ’Twas still blowing high; the windows rattled, the sea broke in thunder and venomous hissing upon the rocks, the wind screamed its complaint of obstruction; ’twas a tumultuous night, wherein, it seems to me, the passions of men are not overawed by any display of inimical power, but break restraint in evil company with the weather. The voices below, as I hearkened, rose and fell, like the gusts of a gale, falling to quiet confidences, lost in the roar of the night, swiftly rising to threat and angry counter-threat.

It ended in a cry and a crash of glass…

I was by this brought out of bed and pattering down the stair to my uncle’s help. It seemed they did not hear me, or, having heard, were enraged past caring who saw them in this evil case. At the door I came to a stand. There was no encounter, no movement at all, within the room; ’twas very quiet and very still. There had fallen upon the world that pregnant silence, wherein men wait appalled, which follows upon the irrevocable act of a quarrel. A bottle of rum was overturned on the table, and a glass lay in splinters on the hearth at my uncle’s back, as though cast with poor aim. The place reeked with the stench of rum, which rose from a river of liquor, overflowing the table, dripping to the floor: a foul and sinister detail, I recall, of the tableau. My uncle and the gray little man from St. John’s, leaning upon their hands, the table between, faced each other all too close for peaceful issue of the broil. Beyond was my uncle’s hand-lamp, where I had set it, burning serenely in this tempest of passion. The faces were silhouetted in profile against its quiet yellow light. Monstrous shadows of the antagonists were cast upon the table and ceiling. For the first time in my life I clapped eyes on the man from St. John’s; but his face was in shadow–I saw dimly. ’Twas clean-shaven and gray: I could tell no more. But yet, I knew, the man was a man of some distinction–a gentleman. ’Twas a definite impression I had. There was that about him–clothes and carriage and shaven face and lean white hands–that fixed it in my memory.

I was not observed.

“Out there on the Devil’s Teeth,” my uncle impassively began, “when I laid hold–”

“But,” the stranger protested, “I have nothing to do with that!”

“Out there on the Devil’s Teeth, that night,” my uncle repeated, “when the seas was breakin’ over, an’ the ice begin t’ come, an’ I laid hold o’ that there Book–”

“Hear me, Top! Will you not hear me?”

“Out there on the Devil’s Teeth,” my uncle patiently reiterated, “when the crew was drownin’ t’ le’ward, an’ ’twas every man for his own life, an’ the ice begin t’ come, an’ I laid hold o’ that there–”

The stranger struck the table with his palm. “Hear me!” he implored. “I have nothing–nothing–to do with the Devil’s Teeth!”

“Out there on the Devil’s Teeth, when I took the oath–”

“You stupid fool!”

“When I took the oath,” my uncle resumed, “I knowed ’twould be hard t’ stand by. I knowed that, sir. I done the thing with open eyes. I’ll never plead ignorance afore the Lord God A’mighty, sir, for the words I spoke that night. I’ve stood by, as best I could; an’ I’ll keep on standin’ by, sir, t’ the end, as best I’m able. God help me, sir!” he groaned, leaning still closer to the gray face of his enemy. “Ye think ye’re in hard case, yourself, sir, don’t ye? Do ye never give a thought t’ me? Dirty business, says you, betwixt you an’ me! Ay; dirty business for Nick Top. But he’ll stand by; he’ll stand by, sir, come what may–t’ the end! I’m not complainin’, mark ye! not complainin’ at all. The lad’s a good lad. I’m not complainin’. He’ve the makin’s of a better man than you. Oh no! I’m not complainin’. Out there on the Devil’s Teeth, that night, when the souls o’ them men was goin’ Aloft an’ Below, accordin’ t’ their deserts, does ye think I was a fool? Fool! I tells ye, sir, I knowed full well I give my soul t’ hell, that night, when I laid my hand on the Book an’ swore that I’d stand by. An’ I will stand by–stand by the lad, sir, t’ the end! He’s a good lad–he’ll make a better man than you–an’ I’ve no word o’ complaint t’ say.”

“The lad, the lad! Do I care for the lad?”

“No, God forgive ye!” my uncle cried, “not you that ought.”

“That ought, you fool?”

“Ay; that ought.”

The man laughed.

“I’ll not have ye laugh,” said my uncle, “at Dannie. Ye’ve tried my patience enough with scorn o’ that child.” He tapped the table imperatively, continuing with rising anger, and scowled in a way I had learned to take warning from. “No more o’ that!” says he. “Ye’ve no call t’ laugh at the lad.”

The laughter ceased–failed ridiculously. It proved my uncle’s mastery of the situation. The man might bluster, but was in a moment reduced.

“Top,” said the stranger, leaning forward a little, “I have asked you a simple question: Will you or won’t you?”

“I will not!”

In exasperation the man struck my uncle on the cheek.

“I’ll not hurt ye for that!” said my uncle, gently. “I’ll not hurt ye, man, for that!”

He was struck again. “There will come an extremity,” the stranger calmly added, “when I shall find it expedient to have you assassinated.”

“I’ll not hurt ye for the threat,” said my uncle. “But man,” he cried, in savage anger, “an you keeps me from workin’ my will with the lad–”

“The lad, the lad!”

“An you keeps me from workin’ my will with that good lad–”

“I say to you frankly: Damn the lad!”

My uncle struck the stranger. “Ye’ll mend your manners!” cried he. “Ye’ve forgot your obligations, but ye’ll mend your manners!”

I marvelled that these men should strike each other with impunity. The like was never known before. That each should patiently bear the insult of the other! I could not make it out. ’Twas strange beyond experience. A blow–and the other cheek turned! Well enough for Christians–but my vicious uncle and this evil stranger! That night, while I watched and listened unperceived from the hall, I could not understand; but now I know that a fellowship of wickedness was signified.

“I’ll not hurt you, Top,” the stranger mocked, “for the blow.”

My uncle laughed.

“Are you laughing, Top?” the stranger sneered. “You are, aren’t you? Well,” says he, “who laughs last laughs best. And I tell you, Top, though you may seem to have the best laugh now, I’ll have the last. And you won’t like it, Top–you won’t be happy when you hear me.”

My uncle laughed again. I wish he had not laughed–not in that unkind way.

“Anyhow,” said the stranger, “take that with my compliments!”

’Twas a brutal blow with the closed fist. I cried out. My uncle, with the sting and humiliation of the thing to forbear, was deaf to the cry; but the gray little man from St. John’s, who knew well enough he would have no buffet in return, turned, startled, and saw me. My uncle’s glance instantly followed; whereupon a singular thing happened. The old man–I recall the horror with which he discovered me–swept the lamp from the table with a swing of his hand. It hurtled like a star, crashed against the wall, fell shattered and extinguished. We were in darkness–and in silence. For a long interval no word was spoken; the gale was free to noise itself upon our ears–the patter of rain, the howl of the wind, the fretful breaking; of the sea.

“Dannie, lad,” says my uncle, at last, “is that you?”

“Ay, sir.”

“Then,” says he, tenderly, “I ’low you’d best be t’ bed. I’m feared you’ll be cotchin’ cold, there in the draught, in your night-gown. Ye’re so wonderful quick, lad, t’ cotch cold.”

“I’ve come, sir,” says I, “t’ your aid.”

The stranger tittered.

“T’ your aid, sir!” I shouted, defiantly.

“I’m not needin’ ye, Dannie. Ye’re best in bed. ’Tis so wonderful late. I ’low ye’ll be havin’ the croup again, lad, an you don’t watch out. An’ ye mustn’t have the croup; ye really mustn’t! Remember the last time, Dannie, an’ beware. Ah, now! ye’ll never have the croup an ye can help it. Think,” he pleaded, “o’ the hot-water cloths, an’ the fear ye put me to. An’ Dannie,” he added, accusingly, “ye know the ipecac is all runned out!”

“I’ll stand by, sir,” says I.

“’Tis kind o’ you!” my uncle exclaimed, with infinite graciousness and affection. “’Tis wonderful kind! An’ I’m glad ye’re kind t’ me now–with my ol’ shipmate here. But you isn’t needed, lad; so do you go t’ bed like the good b’y that you is. Go t’ bed, Dannie, God bless ye!–go t’ bed, an’ go t’ sleep.”

“Ay,” I complained; “but I’m not wantin’ t’ leave ye with this man.”

“True, an’ I’m proud of it,” says he; “but I’ve no means o’ curin’ the croup. An’ Dannie,” says he, “I’m more feared o’ the croup than o’ the devil. Do you go t’ bed.”

“I’ll go,” I answered, “an you wills it.”

’Twas very dark in the dining-room; there was no sight of the geometrical gentlemen on that geometrically tempestuous sea to stay a lad in his defiance.

“Good lad!” said my uncle. “God bless ye!”

On the landing above I encountered my tutor, half-dressed, a candle in hand. ’Twas a queer figure he cut, thinks I–an odd, inconsequent figure in a mysterious broil of the men of our kind. What was this cockney–this wretched alien–when the passions of our coast were stirring? He would be better in bed. An eye he had–age-wise ways and a glance to overawe my youth–but what was he, after all, in such a case as this? I was his master, however unlearned I might be; his elder and master, to be sure, in a broil of our folk. Though to this day I respect the man for his manifold virtues, forgetting in magnanimity his failings, I cannot forgive his appearance on that night: the candle, the touselled hair, the disarray, the lean legs of him! “What’s all this?” he demanded. “I can’t sleep. What’s all this about? Is it a burglar?”

It made me impatient–and no wonder!

“What’s this, you know?” he repeated. “Eh? What’s all this row?”

“Do you go t’ bed!” I commanded, with a stamp, quite out of temper. “Ye’re but a child! Ye’ve no hand in this!”

He was dutiful…

By-and-by my uncle came to my room. He would not enter, but stood at the door, in much embarrassment, all the while looking at the flame of his candle. “Dannie, lad,” he inquired, at last, “is you comfortable?”

“Ay, sir,” says I.

“An’ happy?”

“Ay, sir.”

“An’ is you content,” says he, “all alone with ol’ Nick Top at Twist Tickle?”

I was content.

“You isn’t upsot, is you, by the capers o’ my ol’ shipmate?”

I answered as he wished. “No, sir,” said I.

“Oh no,” says he; “no need o’ bein’ upsot by that ol’ bully. He’ve wonderful queer ways, I’ll not deny, but ye’re not in the way o’ knowin’, Dannie, that he’ve not a good heart. I ’low ye’ll maybe take to un, lad–when you comes t’ know un better. I hopes ye will. I hopes ye’ll find it easy t’ deal with un. They’s no need now o’ bein’ upsot; oh my, no! But, Dannie, an I was you,” says he, a bit hopelessly, “times bein’ what they is, an’ life uncertain–an I was you, lad–afore I went t’ sleep I–I–I ’low I’d overhaul that there twenty-third psa’m!”

He went away then…