Two Drops Of Water

CHAPTER 14

There'd been no one else in this huge house when she'd got up. She'd been worried at first, but the sight of a fully stocked breakfast table had filled her heart, and stomach, with joy.

She'd sat down, had a few sips of pear juice and proceeded to smother half a dozen homemade jams over warm pieces of bread. She'd felt right at home. It was warm and cosy. The old gadgets hung on the walls and resting on the solid wooden shelves made the dining room feel peaceful and safe. Homely, even.

Chantal had got full only after her fourth piece of bread.

She'd slipped on a jacket and gone outside into the vast parking area, seeing for the first time how daylight treated what had seemed ten hours ago to be a house of horrors and a bleak view down into the valley.

Standing there now, with a smile on her face, she wondered how she could ever have been scared by such a marvellous place.

Looking beyond the car park, she saw a vast expanse of green surrounded by trees. The big, white building itself was brought to life somewhat by the green door and shutters. As she glanced upwards, she noticed a large number of plants on the huge balcony, protected from the cold by plastic sheeting.

Chantal closed her eyes and inhaled the pure, country air that surrounded this little bit of paradise. When she reopened them, she was staring at a blue sky with a few wavy clouds. She took a deep breath, as if the oxygen could somehow cleanse her lungs of years of tar and nicotine. She felt like she was sucking on a eucalyptus drop. A gentle infusion of energy.

Fantastic!

Turns out she'd have come to work in Tuscany a lot sooner if she'd known it would be all clean air, breathtaking scenery and homemade jam.

No way was she going back home now.

She wandered over to her car. There was huge scratch all the way down one side, reminding her of the previous day's misadventures. She'd had a lucky escape, she knew that.

She shrugged her shoulders to ward off a shiver and was distracted by the sound of a car approaching.

Coming up the hill she herself had driven up the previous night was a white Opel Kadett which, at first glance, had to be at least twenty-five years old. Chantal squinted to see who was at the wheel, but the sun, albeit fairly weak, was reflecting off the windscreen. Just a few seconds later, it became clear that the person driving was Alfredo.

As the car trundled past, he greeted Chantal by way of a raised arm. She flashed him a smile in return and watched as the Opel pulled in alongside her Citroën.

Alfredo got out and paused to look at the damaged side of the C2. His face clouded over.

"How on earth did you do that, signorina?" he enquired, using for the first time the more formal lei to address her rather than tu.

Chantal was floored by the change. Were they in work mode now? Did she need to observe some employer-employee formalities? She decided to follow suit.

"It's a long sto...let's just say I ran into a little difficulty Mist.."

"Alfredo's fine, honestly."

"As you wish, Alfredo," she replied, using lei.

"Why are you suddenly using lei?" he asked.

Chantal was speechless. Just seconds earlier, he'd used lei to address her! Was he pulling her leg? She decided to ask, albeit indirectly.

"But you just called me lei."

"I did?"

"Yes, when you got out of the car," Chantal continued, motioning to the old banger.

"Impossible," Alfredo replied, staring at the floor. "Ermm, OK. Perhaps I misheard." He took a few steps towards her and looked directly into her eyes. "It's best if we carry on using tu. What do you say?"

Chantal was lost in his stare, unable to decide if she was in heaven or hell.

She snapped out of it and found the strength for a smile and a response.

"Fine by me."

"Great," he replied, placing a hand on her shoulder. "Have you already had breakfast? I left you someth..."

"It was the best breakfast I've ever had," Chantal replied, feeling a touch embarrassed by the overfamiliarity of Alfredo's hand.

"Really?" exclaimed Alfredo, as he tightened his grip.

Again, the sensation in the pit of her stomach left Chantal wondering if she were in heaven or hell.

"The jam was absolutely..."

"Delicious?" he ventured.

"That wouldn't do it justice."

"I see. So what word would do it justice then?" he asked, finally relaxing his grip on the girl's shoulder.

"I think 'exquisite' sums it up very nicely," she replied, relieved to be free from his grasp. "And there's plenty more compliments where that came from."

"Chantal, you're too kind."

"But it's true."

"If you insist. All that matters is that you liked it. I'm pleased. The jam's homemade, by me."

He paused and smiled, looking straight into Chantal eyes. She lowered her gaze and felt her face redden.

"If we have a bit of spare time, I can show you how I do it."

Chantal looked up at him, and he saw she looked puzzled.

"The jam, I mean," he clarified. "I'll teach you every trick in the book, and you'll be making exquisite jams in no time!"

"Oh, I'd love that!" she replied, holding his gaze for a split second.

"It's a date!" He turned around and gestured towards the Kadett. "Could you give me a hand with the shopping?"

Chantal watched as he opened the boot, which contained several large bags. She realised at that very moment that she'd been hired. No need for an interview. Unless the few words they'd just exchanged counted and were enough to convince him she was the right person for the job.

"Sure, I'm intrigued to see what you've bought."

CHAPTER 15

Perhaps Chantal's luck had changed. Perhaps God had finally realised that even she needed some respite from all the crap.

She finally felt like she was living again, rather than just surviving.

Another line crossed.

Unbeknown to Chantal, Alfredo poked his head into the pantry.

"Hey! I see you've already put everything away."

His voice jarred her out of her thoughts.

"Nearly everything," she confessed after a moment's hesitation, pointing to a shopping bag still on the floor.

Around an hour earlier, Alfredo had given her a brief overview of how things worked at the B&B before showing her the pantry and issuing a few vague instructions. She'd done her best and tried to remember what he'd suggested. She smiled. It looked as though she'd succeeded.

"You're very quick and very thorough..." Alfredo stroked his chin, debating whether to say what was on the tip of his tongue.

Chantal looked up at him, inviting him to go on.

He smiled thinly and continued.

"If I'd have known, I'd have hired you years ago."

She tried to suppress the smile that was forming at the edges of her mouth. She wasn't used to compliments. None of her previous bosses had given her any, not even Signor Ferruccio from Lilly's Snack Bar, and he'd been the nicest of them all.

She looked down, shifting her gaze away from Alfredo. Unable to suppress the smile any longer, she turned towards the open cupboard door and pretended to check what she'd already put away.

"That's very kind of you," she said, doing her utmost to keep her excitement in check, "but isn't it a bit early to be showering me with praise? I've only done one job for you!"

Alfredo coughed twice to clear his throat.

"Look, Chantal..."

He coughed again to buy himself the time he needed to rearrange what he wanted to say.

"I've been doing this for quite a few years now. Running a B&B..."

He paused for a moment to watch the graceful movements of Chantal's shapely body.

His voice came out hoarse, but to Chantal it was like birdsong.

"...and I've seen a lot of girls over that time, believe me. Loads of them accept that they have to do the work, but not many really want to be doing it. And even fewer actually manage to do it well..."

He took a couple of steps towards her.

"You do it very well, Chantal. I don't need months of observing you to know that. I suspected as much in the chat room, and now I know for sure."

This time, Chantal had no choice but to turn and meet the gaze of her new employer. She didn't feel it was necessary to hide her smile any longer.

"I'm pleased you think so highly of me."

His response was immediate.

"I'm pleased to have found a girl like you."

She smiled again.

"Have there really been that many girls who have worked here?"

Alfredo looked up at the ceiling and his head began to nod as if he were counting every single girl as their image passed in front of his eyes.

Then, suddenly, he looked directly at her again.

Heaven or hell?

"There's been so many I've lost count."

Chantal decided he was being genuine. She felt like the time had come to ask him the question she had wanted to put to him as soon as he'd offered her the job. But not just yet.

"So, what became of them? Did you fire them all?" she added jokingly, accompanying her question with yet another smile.

Alfredo seemed a bit put out.

Chantal sensed he'd had problems with some of the girls. Too many sick days, trouble with the unions, hands in the till. That kind of thing.

"To tell you the truth," Alfredo ventured, "it was them who chose to leave." He licked his lips. "Well, most of them anyway. I'm not a horrible boss, if that's what you're thinking."

"It's not," she said instinctively.

He moved closer to her and carried on.

"In all these years, I've only ever fired one girl." He stopped, losing himself for an instant. "Yes, only one."

"And why was that? If you don't mind me asking."

Alfredo's expression softened.

"It's funny looking back on it now. But it sure as hell wasn't at the time. She lost me four guests in one fell swoop..." he shook his head as though he were still in denial. "...and didn't even stop to think about the bad impression it would leave on the other people staying here."

He took a second to gather his thoughts, and Chantal gestured at him to carry on.

"Lavinia. That was her name." Alfredo appeared to be trying to dredge up memories from however many years ago this all took place. "She was very hard-working, in the sense that she would do whatever I asked. She did a good job and she did it quickly too. What more could I have asked for?"

Chantal realised it was a rhetorical question.

"She didn't smoke or drink - a really good girl, basically. Apart from her one vice..." Alfredo stared angrily into Chantal's vulnerable, pale-blue eyes.

It was just hell in his look now, no doubt about it.

"...married men."

Alfredo began to spit out his words.

"That girl loved nothing more than fucking other women's husbands. She really screwed me over." He seemed to snap out of his fury, the calmness returning to his words. "You certainly couldn't accuse her of not being conscientious. I mean, she certainly took care of business on her day off."

"Business?" Chantal asked, not really wanting to know the sordid details.

Alfredo looked a little embarrassed. He rubbed his forehead nervously before continuing.

"That's right, business. The business of anything and everything that a woman and two men can possibly get up to in a bedroom. Unfortunately for her, the wife of one of the guys sprained her ankle while the wives were out hill-walking, forcing them to come back early. Anyway, I'll give you the condensed version. At that time, as well as the tourists, I had two couples staying here. They were friends, around forty years old. Lavinia thought it would be a great idea to get the two guys into bed. You can imagine what happened the wives caught them at it. All hell broke loose. Obviously, the couples didn't hang around, but they'd created such a scene that the tourists also decided to leave. I mean, what was I supposed to do?"

He shrugged and held out his arms, reliving the sense of helplessness he'd felt on that day in the distant past.

"I gave her a second chance, but when she pulled the same stunt again I had no choice but to fire her. She's the only girl I've ever sacked...so far."

Chantal felt panicked as she could feel his eyes boring into her. She needed to say something to release the pressure.

"And the others? What happened to them?"

She felt stupid, realising she'd already asked that question.

"I told you, didn't I?" Alfredo continued to stare at her, but Chantal could have sworn his mind was elsewhere. "They left."

She decided now was the time.

"Alfredo, can I ask you something?"

He seemed to snap out of his trance.

"Sure."

She took a deep breath. Now or never.

"There must be loads of girls around here. Why did you hire someone who lives three hundred miles away?"

Alfredo looked surprised.

"You see, Chantal, our lives are governed by fate. It was fate that I met you in the chat room, and fate that you didn't have a job."

Chantal nodded tentatively.

"The girls round here don't exactly have a strong work ethic, and anyway..."

Alfredo decided he needed to let Chantal know about all the rumours, otherwise some busybody would only try and scare her with some ridiculous story the first time she went into town.

"And anyway what?" Chantal encouraged him to continue.

Alfredo sighed loudly.

"Chantal, you need to know that people round here don't like me or my business. They spread a whole load of lies about me."

"What kind of lies?" she blurted out in panic.

"That I'm some kind of monster." He stared right at her, aware that she was unable to find any words. "Look at me. Do I seem like a monster to you?"

Chantal shook her head and thought back to the old lady she'd encountered at the roadside. She was about to mention her to Alfredo - perhaps she already had? - but something inside was warning her against it. She decided to let him carry on.

"See? I don't seem like a monster because I'm not one." Alfredo again spread his arms out wide in a gesture that suggested he was reluctantly resigned to the situation. "Do I really seem like the kind of man who would kidnap, torture and kill a girl like you?"

Chantal felt her stomach tighten. For the second time in less than twenty-four hours, she wondered whatever had possessed her to leave her quiet little home for this godforsaken B&B in the arse end of nowhere.

She froze as Alfredo drew closer. He put his hands on her shoulders and looked straight into her big, blue eyes.

"I don't seem like that kind of man because I'm not one. They're making it up. There are no monsters here."

Alfredo shook his head disconsolately and Chantal could see he was fighting back tears.

His voice began to crack.

"Why do they keep making up all those stories about me and the house? Over the last few years, they've turned me into an outcast, like I'm some kind of leper."

Once again, the old lady's face popped into Chantal's head. But she pushed the image to the back of her mind and calmed herself, managing to restore her heart rate to something approaching normal. The tightness in her stomach began to fade and she felt sympathy for the broken man in front of her as he looked for a shoulder to cry on.

"You don't have to..." she started to say, but he quickly backed away and interrupted.

"Sorry. I shouldn't have said anything. You shouldn't have to see me like this."

Alfredo hurriedly dried his eyes, turned around and walked out the door.

CHAPTER 16

It was an illness. Eugenio Boroni was sure of it.

Not scratching his ear or running his tongue over the cavity;

the other thing. The other thing was an illness.

He'd heard people talking about it and had looked it up on various websites. They all said it was a kind of psychiatric illness. One that pushes against the sides of your brain whenever it feels like it. The victim is powerless to resist, forced to do whatever the thing says.

When Eugenio felt it pushing, he would fidget, get nervous, shake like a leaf. He started to scratch his ear lobe frenetically. Such was the force he was using, his ear began to bleed. The scabs left behind only made him want to scratch even more. His mother had figured as much and told him off. The family doctor had prescribed an anti-inflammatory and told his mother to stick plasters on his ears. After Eugenio had left the room, the doctor had spoken to his mother one-to-one. He'd told her the boy was nervous, perhaps even a little anxious and scared. Given his age, these problems were fairly normal but shouldn't be ignored. They should get better with the passing of time, but if they don't, it would be wise to consult a psychologist. The doctor had said the ear scratching was a nervous tic caused by the typical worries of a particularly fragile and sensitive pre-teenage boy.

Eugenio knew now that the doctor couldn't have been more wrong. He wasn't anxious or scared. That tic was just a consequence of this stupid illness.

It was something he'd always had, and the thing had pushed him to the margins of society.

At first, people listen to you, maybe even smile. But then they realise something's not quite right with you. Their mood changes.

The thing...

He always tried to fight it, but he wasn't strong enough. It had got the better of him every single time.

At first, when he still hadn't given it a name, the desire seemed to be coming from a remote part of his body, somewhere inside. This desire would become an irrepressible urge that he had to act on. He had to do whatever the illness told him to do. Even if it was wrong; even if it was evil.

Especially if it was evil.

He hadn't felt that irrepressible urge for a while now. The illness had simply become an integral part of who he was and what he did. He just did things. He no longer knew right from wrong. Real from fake. He'd lost trust in himself and there was every chance that others would soon lose their faith in him. There were certain things, certain words, that people just wouldn't forgive.

And once you've lost that trust, it's hard to get it back,

if not impossible.

CHAPTER 17

The bedroom was bathed in a pleasant half-light.

Chantal was flat on her back under the soft, warm covers, her eyes open wide as she focused on what little she could see. It was late and she'd worked hard, but she didn't feel tired. Her mind was spinning with everything that had happened. It had been a busy day.

She took a deep breath and closed her eyes as she exhaled. She imagined what Lavinia might have looked like. Tall, for a woman. Provocative red lips. Stylish, attractive glasses. Lavinia was smiling, her teeth perfectly white and straight. She was comfortable discussing any topic: politics, current affairs, food and drink, you name it. Honest, hardworking... the perfect employee.

As Chantal opened her eyes, scenes from the life of the Lavinia she had just created in her mind began to play out on the ceiling.

Lavinia was sat on the edge of an unmade bed, flanked by two men about fifteen years her senior. Her glasses made her sensual, sexy even. She licked all the way around her lips with her long tongue. She teased the mouth of the man on her right with one hand, the balls of the man on the left with the other. Then she grabbed one of the men's hands and placed it on her breasts, and slid the other man's hands slowly up her naked thighs until they disappeared under her skirt.

Chantal glanced out of the window. She'd deliberately left the shutters open because she hated laying in complete darkness. Through the window, she could see that the sky was virtually pitch black and the leaves of a big tree were being blown by the cold wind of this never-ending winter.

When she looked back up at the ceiling, Lavinia was wearing nothing but a pair of patent stilettos. She was on all fours on the mattress, sucking one of the guys' cocks. The other was pulling her by the hair as he fucked her from behind. Her back was a dead straight line between the curves of her shoulders and arse. Her moans of pleasure filled the room, providing a contrast with the panting and grunting of the two men.

A really good girl, apart from her one vice...

Married men.

Chantal forced herself to fast forward through the sex scenes and resume the images just as the wives entered the room. First, the shock. Then, the transformation into savage beasts as they hurled themselves angrily at the slut and their cheating husbands.

The scene made Chantal remember when she was betrayed by Giulio.

As she tried to push that memory to one side,

the images on the ceiling faded away. Chantal wondered what became of the two couples. Whether the wives had left their respective husbands as well as the B&B, or whether they'd forgiven them. It was pointless wondering, really. Sometimes, you had to experience situations for yourself to know how you'd react. It was all too easy looking in from the outside and judging people for the choices they made. 'I'd do this or I'd do that'. No, that's not how it worked. Life wasn't like that. You shouldn't criticise other people's decisions. How often did life just creep up on you? Throw a spanner in the works? Deal you the cruellest twist of fate? Put you at a crossroads? You have to decide which way to turn, and you know there's no going back.

That's how it had been for her. When Chantal had walked in on Giulio screwing that girl, whatever her fucking name was, she'd realised that no matter how much she loved him, she would never be able to forgive him.

As she came back into the here and now, she realised her quiet sobbing was the only sound in the room. Tears streamed down her face.

She took a deep breath and told herself everything would be OK.

She was at the B&B now, a long way from home. A long way from people and places that didn't deserve her. She was ready to start over.

Chantal wondered if the other girls who had worked here had also taken the job to get a fresh start. Or perhaps it was just to tide them over financially until they found a permanent job with a proper company in the city. She would have liked to speak to one of those girls just so she could ask them about the role of...

What was it she was actually here to do?

...factotum.

Who knows why they all left? She thought back to how sad and embarrassed Alfredo had looked when he spoke about his former employees.

Why was he like that?

At one point, Chantal had even thought he was about to be sick. But he didn't seem the shy type. He'd reeled off Lavinia's sexual exploits as nonchalantly as if he were reading out a shopping list.

Suddenly, a thought struck her and her heart skipped a beat.

What if the girls had left because of those rumours Alfredo had mentioned?

Chantal broke out into a cold sweat.

What if something horrible had happened to them? What if Alfredo were the kind of man who would kidnap, torture and kill a girl like her?

She noticed her pulse had quickened and her face was covered in sweat, so she tried to calm down and get rid of some of her tension by tightly gripping the edges of the bed sheet. She closed her eyes and felt as if she were hurtling into a vortex. It was like there was a hole in the middle of her chest, and she wondered if this was what it felt like just before you died.

Bang!

The sudden noise woke her from her bizarre slumber. She turned and realised immediately that it was the window shaking in the wind.

She put a hand on her chest. Her heart was still racing, seemingly fit to burst right out of her rib cage.

No, it's not possible, she said to herself. That man is no monster.

She thought back to when Alfredo had burst out crying in front of her and beaten a hasty retreat. An evil person wouldn't have shed a single tear. Tough guys turn away to cry; monsters never cry at all.

And then there was his gaze: so insecure, so kind...

He was a captivating man with magnetic, deep brown eyes that could draw you in. They were also the most sincere eyes Chantal had ever seen.

As she looked back up at the ceiling, she saw Alfredo's face smiling down at her. She smiled back and quickly told herself she was being daft. For two reasons. First, for having smiled at an image she had projected herself. Second, for the butterflies she had felt in her stomach as she exchanged smiles with the vision of Alfredo.

No, she could never fall for him; he was her boss! Besides, she was convinced it would never work.

Her eyelids began to get heavy. Sleep was finally, albeit far too slowly, taking hold.

Chantal went over her first day of work at the B&B. She'd tidied the pantry, fed the birds and swept up the leaves. And then there'd been...how did Alfredo describe it? Oh yes, the guided tour. He'd shown her the bedrooms, the huge kitchen and the lounge area for guests. Then he'd taken her outside and simply opened out his arms in a grand gesture, inviting her to survey the vast expanse of land. The vineyard, the gardens and the never-ending olive trees. He had pointed out how similar those two trees in particular were and explained the story behind the name of the B&B. Then, they'd gone round the back and Alfredo had shown her the games area. There was crazy golf, table football (which they'd spent a few minutes playing - an honourable two-all draw) and an old pool table.

With her eyes half closed, Chantal could make out the image of a pool table on the ceiling. A couple of guys were playing until they were interrupted by a girl.

It was Lavinia. Chantal wanted to ask her what had made her go after married men. Who knows, maybe she'd even slept with Alfredo? No, thought Chantal, he isn't married so she wouldn't have got her claws into him.

Lavinia vanished and was replaced by the bony-faced old woman, who then herself made way for two women aged around forty.

Chantal smiled ruefully as she realised what she had in common with those two wives: betrayal by a man. OK, so she hadn't been married. Thank goodness.

And also, those two guys had just been thinking with their dicks; you could hardly describe their session with Lavinia as an affair of the heart. Giulio, on the other hand, had wanted a family. A family that Chantal could never have provided.

It would never have lasted anyway. I'd never have stayed with a woman who couldn't give me a child.

As she replayed those words in her head, her throat tightened.

It hurt, both mentally and physically.